Forgiveness?

I have often wondered why it is such a hard word to understand or even grasp. People do things all the time and tend to just expect that no matter what they do it will be ok. I wish I could just say "Yeah, sure it's ok with me..it doesnt matter that you were just extremely mean and insensitive." I just can't do that. I am not a DUCK..things don't just roll off me. I am working on that but it is just not something that comes easy. People feel the unnecessary need to give me their brutally blunt opinions without reguard that whoever they are talking about is someone I care about. People talking is what took a great friend away from me. I am no longer ok with hugging or even talking to this friend with out having to worry that someone will turn it around. I just care about my buddy so much. He really has been a great friend. He was there when my husband and I dated, married and had our son. He stuck around while our son was in the NICU for 12 days...and we have been there all through his start with the military. I just feel like I am losing my child or brother but I can't show emotion without someone blowing it out of proportion. When his deployment comes I really don't know how well I am going to take it. MY family really supports our military and the work they are doing but it doesn't make it any easier to kiss a loved one not knowing if they will return. I am really just wanting to vent and tear up without having to answer to anyone. Buddy, please come home...I don't care if your late, but for heaven's sake please come home...:(